Wednesday, July 7, 2021

 It's another meeting of the IWSG! (the insecure writer's support group).

Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

July 7 question - What would make you quit writing?

The awesome co-hosts for the July 7 posting of the IWSG are Pat Garcia, Victoria Marie Lees, and Louise – Fundy Blue!

Hello dear insecure writers and those who adore them,
As I write this I dwell in complete insecurity - I'm still waiting to hear the final word from a publisher about whether they are going to publish my novel, Crooked Knife, or not. 

It has been such an intense time and most of it not about my writing. A bit over a week ago a friend of mine died, myself and two other pals at her side. The four months since her terrible prognosis seemed to take place outside of time - either things felt dreadfully speeded up or tortuously slow. We were glad that we managed to keep her in her apartment and that the three of us were with her as she died. Now we are disposing of all her things, sorting, phoning etc... 

During her short brutal illness my newest grandchild was born. I could only see him a couple of times because we were in a tight lockdown. That has lifted and my time is slowly becoming my own again.

None of this, I hasten to say, do I have any regrets about. I regret my friend was in pain and died of course, but I didn't regret a minute of time that I spent with her. It was an honour.

But it meant that when I got an email during this same time saying that my book was being considered for publication it wasn't the thrill that I dreamed about since I was a wee sprout. I was excited but in a less exuberant way.  I suppose I have had a very intense course in putting things in their proper perspective. 

And that brings me to this month's question "what would make you quit writing?". 


Writing is how I make sense of my life.
At the end of this month I'm going off for a solitary retreat. I will practice the dharma and write a collection of poems about my recent experience.
Writing is how I know who I am. Why would I not want to find that out? It would be like giving up on myself.

Wednesday, June 2, 2021

Twas brillig


Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

Yes it is that day again! The IWSG meets! Click the link to sign up...

My topic for the day is waiting. Some days I feel like a writer and some days I feel like a waiter. I'm so skitty right now that I'm not even going to share what I'm waiting for - though long term readers of this blog will have some idea. Let's just say I'm waiting for news. While I wait I'm keeping busy. I'm working on a submission of poems for a chapbook contest, which has been quite interesting. I took part in what is called Poetry Lab through Frontier Poetry and received all sorts of helpful information on getting poetry published, as well as a juicy letter from a poetry editor who gave me a critique on nine of my poems. I've written poetry since I was a string bean and I love it in a very different way than I love writing fiction. I have utter confidence in my poetry. I believe in it. And, although to get positive feedback, especially in the form of publishing, is wonderful, my confidence in my poems never wavers. It doesn't mean that I think they are perfect or don't need revising, but I just don't ever feel like it is hopeless or that I'm lost in it (or if I am, it is in a good way). is a great antidote to the waiting game.

My real life, as opposed to my crazy writing life, is very challenging right now. We are still (the week before this is posted) under a strict lockdown. I miss seeing my newest grandbaby who I've only met once. I miss hanging with my best pals. I miss restaurants and live music but I can live with that. My flexible time goes to a sick friend. There are only three of us taking care of her and so I'm stretched in a new and intense fashion. I work my waiting, writing, gardening, and socializing (virtual not actual) around the time I spend with her. I'm not complaining - it is choiceless and an honour to spend her last precious days with her. It puts everything into its proper perspective.

And it gives me the added reminder that for all of us time is finite. If I'm waiting, I need to remember that I think it is worth it - what I'm doing creatively or socially or even in terms of distractions.

One precious life...

Wednesday, May 5, 2021

the insecure writer's support group and me


Dear insecure pals;

Yes, it is another meeting of the Insecure Writer's Support Group - tap the name and signup or find others writing about writing.

Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

The awesome co-hosts for the May 5 posting of the IWSG are Erika Beebe, PJ Colando, Tonja Drecker, Sadira Stone, and Cathrina Constantine!

I've got lots of things I want to say this month so I'm not answering the monthly question. I have had a complete rollercoaster of a ride for the last couple of months. I think it had begun last month in my writing world when I was asked for two full manuscripts - one for a slightly older YA called Bright Angel and one for my most current novel Crooked Knife. The first call for a full was the absolute direct result of teaming up with fellow blogger Liza from Middle Passages. We had both been feeling the blahs about the submitting process with our queries and decided to hold each other accountable to keep sending out those arrows of intention. I had Crooked Knife out to a few places and didn't want to send another query out until I'd heard from one or two of them. So I sent out Bright Angel to a new publisher in Nova Scotia. About a week later they asked for a full and then so did one of the Newfoundland publishers. The Newfoundland publisher promised a response within a month and I didn't know about the NS one. Well, a little over two weeks ago I heard from the wife of the Nova Scotia publisher with terribly sad news. He had died suddenly and it being a very small company they had to tell anyone awaiting news that there probably wasn't going to be anything happening in the foreseeable future. Naturally this was shocking news - the publisher, who I'd researched before sending, was just my cup of tea - a really interesting guy who had moved to Nova Scotia with his wife after decades of a full professional life doing something that was not publishing. I love these third acts - after all that's where I am at - so...

Two days later I heard from the Newfoundland publisher. They are seriously considering publishing my novel AND I have a revision to do - the plot needs work. They said nothing that was too outrageous and I agreed to work on it for a month - half of which is nearly up. It is all plot problems so I have undone my ending and am rewriting it. It is HARD. But I'm doing it and I am, of course, thrilled with the good possibility of getting a novel published. 

Of course regular life continues apace as well. I have a good pal who received a very dire prognosis about a month ago. She is in palliative care and there is myself and two other women who are supporting her through this time. To further complicate matters of course there is covid. It makes all the procedures take longer to happen - all the appointments difficult. Luckily she can still have two visitors a day on the unit even though the province is now in its most severe lockdown of the pandemic - we did so well and then the third wave hit with a vengeance. 

And I have a new grandson - a little pandemic baby born two weeks ago today. I've seen him once and hoped to be spending lots of time there (in between revising bouts) but now I'm going to wait until this phase of the lockdown is over. 

My sincere hope is that for next month's meeting of the IWSG I will be able to report that I have a book deal. I have been part of this gang for a very long time and I have been working towards being published as a novelist for even longer. I know that it won't solve world peace (whirled peas?) and that I'll be the same person I am now - but still I want it!!

I hope all are well and that those of you who continue to work towards your goals keep on keepin' on! Now I must get back to that pesky plot...

Wednesday, April 7, 2021

Rebel Writing

 It's another meeting of the IWSG ! 

Posting: The first Wednesday of every month is officially Insecure Writer’s Support Group day. Post your thoughts on your own blog. Talk about your doubts and the fears you have conquered. Discuss your struggles and triumphs. Offer a word of encouragement for others who are struggling. Visit others in the group and connect with your fellow writer - aim for a dozen new people each time - and return comments. This group is all about connecting!

April 7 question - Are you a risk-taker when writing? Do you try something radically different in style/POV/etc. or add controversial topics to your work?

Why, yes I am! If you can't take risks on the page, well I don't where you can. I'm not putting in all this effort to play it safe. I have two novels out looking for homes right now and both of them, I think, may be a little harder to place than is necessarily comfortable - but I won't change them to make them more palatable to the market place. The oldest one is possibly a YA, not truly sure, I didn't write it that way on purpose but that seems to be the consensus. It might be a little tricky because something terrible happens to the protagonist. I tried to not have it happen but working with an editor who begged me to try had both of us realize that the story had to go that way. The more recent novel presents some controversial topics to do with a large corporation and indigenous land use. I wrote it out of my fury with the provincial and national governments involved and heartbreak for both the ecological disaster happening and the vulnerable indigenous people of that land. Even though I have fictionalized the various aspects I know this will be a tough call for a publisher. I guess I'm looking for a brave-hearted politically savvy publisher and I hope I find him or her.

I don't think either of them are preachy or didactic in any way but they do deal with controversial subjects that I am passionate about. I cannot imagine spending the years needed to write a novel if it didn't include subjects that I feel strongly about.

Right now both of these books are under consideration by two different publishers who each requested a whole manuscript. I am tremendously pleased to have made it this far, and I believe both of these stories need to be told. My current WIP isn't about anything too controversial right now but who knows! Things can change and as I'm a pantser (meaning I don't pre-plot or plan my novels) I really can't promise my protagonist won't stay out of trouble.

Well, it is time to get back to that wip which is called (for now anyway) Lost & Found. I wrote a thousand words a day for all of March and for April my goal is 500 words a day as I also need to start putting in some structure. I have 55 thousand words so far and will have about 66 thousand by the end of this month which is nearly a book so lots of fun! 

I hope all of you are well and busy writing (if that is your jam) or gardening or making quilts or rocking babies or painting pictures or ...

Wednesday, March 3, 2021

what I read


Yes! It is another meeting of the Insecure Writer's Support Group - click the name to go to the signup sheet. We meet the first Wednesday of every month and boys oh boys (girls oh girls) do we have fun!

Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!

The awesome co-hosts for the March 3 posting of the IWSG are Sarah - The Faux Fountain Pen Jacqui Murray, Chemist Ken, Victoria Marie Lees, Natalie Aguirre, and JQ Rose!

March 3 question - Everyone has a favorite genre or genres to write. But what about your reading preferences? Do you read widely or only within the genre(s) you create stories for? What motivates your reading choice?

I read voraciously and across all genres. Reading is my refuge and abiding habit. I am likewise motivated widely in what I choose to read :

1. What do I have on hand? In December I get lots of new books as it is both Christmas and my birthday. I`ve read 24 books so far this year - mostly fiction, but some dharma books (on Buddhist topics) and a couple of memoirs I think. Besides gifts I`ve been reading borrows from pals - we are all big readers and so the books fly around our households - and online from the library. I`ve also ordered a few online that I wanted to own. 

2. What I need in terms of distraction, healing, soothing etc... reading is my therapy and so I`m careful of what I take in. If I`m having a hard time sleeping then I don`t read disturbing books (too much violence or general sadness) in the evening. If I`m sad I usually read books I`ve read before or at least authors that I like and that I know will uplift me. 

3. Books for bookclub - so that is only about ten a year and one of those I will have chosen so not a biggy. But our bookclub is also a great source of referrals for books so there is that.

4. Books for the writing craft- (I originally said for my writing but I think reading widely is the best thing any writer can do besides writing!) I have  many books that I keep close by for different stages of my writing. The last two years I was revising and editing so I was very heavily into Susan Bell's The Artful Edit. Love that book! Now I'm onto a new project and am rereading old favourites like Write for Your Life by Joseph Sestito and On Writer's Block by Victoria Nelson, as well as the constant joy of Bird by Bird by Anne Lammott, Writing Down the Bones by Natalie Goldberg and On Writing by Stephen King.

5. Books for information - I quilt, draw, meditate, garden, and cook so read many books that aid these disciplines. 

In this time of pandemic and social unrest I do read more than ever and I was always a big reader. I'm mostly retired and so have more time, and because I finished two massive projects in the fall of last year I've been slightly unmoored and reading has been even more of a refuge. I'm also staying off all screens on Sundays which gives me plenty of time to sink into good books. 

Is reading a refuge for you? I look forward to seeking out my fellow writers and seeing what they say on this topic...

Here is a photo from a retreat I went on with some pals down the shore...we walked and talked and cooked and read...

Here is a link to another blog of mine where I talk about my winter doldrums and how it 
affected my writing