This is the first Wednesday in March and you know what that means - Insecure Writer's Support Group. As I look around the room I'm encouraged to see such a big turnout - I know - I should wish that no one would show up for that might indicate no one was insecure. But I know better - the fact that people can drag themselves to a meeting and stand up and write about how insecure they might be feeling is a good thing. Yes, it is.
Today I would like to fess up about my root insecurity. Ahem ... here I go ... my deep-down terrible fear is two-fold - one that I don't write well enough for anyone to care and two that there is a lot of excellent writing out there so why should I add to a pile (especially considering #1). #3 problem is that I am hopeless at grammar - for instance I just spent a whack of time putting the last period in and out of the parenthesis. But let's not even go there - I can and do get help for that and try not to fuss. Now that I think of it, I also have a #4 - scatterology - the abiding love of being scattered - my interests ranging from home-grown mysteries to deep literary-type novels to creative non-fiction to plays to poetry to the essay. Also I like dogs, gardening, knitting, politics, reading, photography, meditating, grand-children and messing about in boats. Whenever I'm engaged in any of these passions I feel that they are the ONLY thing. But they aren't.
Now I'd like to rebut some of what I've just said. In response to #1 and #4 I have been writing as a solid practice for about 12 years - I always wrote before that but I wasn't so persistent with it. I am getting better. I'm also getting faster. And I think that my scatterology aids me in what I write - I have a rather broad knowledge of jobs, places, and passions because I've had many jobs, lived and travelled many places and been passionate about many things.
Thank you for listening. When I air my fears they dissipate somewhat. If you haven't already - take the link above to Alex Cavenaugh's site and find more of us insecure writers waxing on. That's what I'm going to do.