My NaBlo posts are in the form of letters to my journal about my revision process. Along the way, I'll include Home-Made Revision Workshop posts, and my Friday Challenges.
I know this isn't the first Wednesday of the month, therefore Insecure Writer posting day, but...
I just feel sort of, kind of, somewhat, dodgy about my writing practice right now. This morning - today. Maybe it is because I spent the evening with my fella at a fete for a dear friend. Everyone there was talking about their trips to Europe and Australia and their renovations and their kids in private school and I got...feeling bad. And in case you're wondering, no one was bragging or being fat-headed about any of this. They were simply reporting on their lives in an ordinary way as many of us hadn't seen each other in awhile.
And they were interested in what I'd been up to, and were thrilled to hear how focussed I've been on my writing. None of them asked me if my fella and I had any trips planned (nope) or how our kids were making out in stooopid old regular school. I like my step-dot's school. It is good for the most part, and I don't think I'd send her to a private school even if we could afford it. I am my Scottish ancestor's child and I believe with all my heart on public education - if it isn't good enough, I need to work with other like-minded parents and educators to make it so.
I would like to travel a little more freely though.
And so...to the revision process. This is where the problem I mentioned yesterday rears its ugly head. The problem of aggression and my lack of patience. I want to get a book published, not because I think it will make a great deal of difference in my $ life, I'm insecure not delusional, but because, on the social scene, it would make sense of my feckless seeming life. Ah, folks would exclaim, that's why she's suffering - for her art! And yes, it would make a difference to be published and suffering for my art. Otherwise, maybe I'm just plain crazy. Muttering away in my room about plots and revisions and all the correct buzz-words, but the poor dear never finishes anything - or if she does, it is of dubious value!
OK - got that out of my system. Now for the good news. Yesterday I did my two chapters. I walked with my pal. I sat and I did a wee wee bit of cleaning. I'm happy with the chapters I worked on, as I not only changed them from 1st to 3rd but I significantly changed some of them as to the changes I talked about yesterday. And it wasn't that hard. So, back at it today, Journal. Thanks for listening. You are swell!
Here's a photo from the walk...