No - not entirely true - I have been doing a series of digital sketches with short-short stories or poems attached and posting them daily on facebook. I do that without resistance every morning. I also wrote 70 poems for my best bud - I started on her birthday last year and finished up yesterday. I sent them to her as I wrote them so she had a steady stream of poems all year. It was fun and I think it is a good collection. I'm assembling them all into a home-made book for her now. It is exciting to go over them all and see my year unfold.
But my other practices just stopped. I cannot sit easily so I stopped my meditation. I think I can figure out a way to continue that but man when I stop something it is so solid! I hadn't missed a day in over a year and a half.
I meant to keep on sending out packages for my novel but I stalled there too. Can't say what I'll do - the packages are ready - just a little tweaking for each publisher or agent - but somehow I find it hard to get around to. I'm not working on my new novel so it is still there in limbo - nearly done my first shitty draft but not quite.
I'm drawing a bit but not nearly as much as I was - except for the flower folk I do on fb.
So...I'm really trying to practice self-love. I'm deeply deeply tired from the fairly constant pain. I just got some medication that will help me sleep at night so that should improve. I'm not depressed but I swung pretty close to that. I'm still crazy about my fella and know my work on the reserve is good deep stuff. The rest will have to wait.
If you've tried to hang in with me - thank you. If not - I get it. I'm promising nothing in terms of this blog - only that I feel a bit of September energy coming toward me. Who knows? Here's a drawing I made for my son and Grazie's wedding. And the words
And she said I do and he said I do and all of us said we will. And it was lovely by the river and the trees said we will too.