group, but I'm just saying - I feel pretty darn great. And it isn't that I've heard from a publisher or an agent. It's not because I can quit my day job and focus totally on writing. Michael Ondaatje hasn't offered to mentor me. It isn't any of those things. It's simply because I have been working on a revision of Bright Angel and I stopped for a couple of months for reasons I don't need to go into, and I went back atter AND I solved a big problem in what feels like a brilliant fashion. I didn't lose it - my focus, my connection with the story, none of it. I let it sit and ripen while still doing things that feed my creative heart - drawing, putting on a show, solving work dilemmas by thinking out of the box. When I went back in and got to the problem point (right near the end, sometimes called 'the climax') I fought it tooth and nail. I got tired and weepy and said it was okay as it was. And then I lingered longer. I stayed with it and pushed through and low and behold, while I was meditating, I got it. I could sing it from the rooftops - I feel like I'm a character on one of those Viagra commercials - or like I took off too-small hiking boots - I mean relief. R.E.L.I.E.F. - you know what it means to me - sock it to me sock it to me... etc.
It is so exciting to make that breakthrough and to remember 'in my time' not anyone else's. In my time.
Thank you and carry on.
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