re-jec-tion n. 1. The act or process of rejecting. 2. The condition of being rejected. 3. Something rejected.
I think I am number three - I'm something rejected. I feel like something rejected or even ejected, expelled or thrown away. Oh, don't rush to soothe me. I'll get over it by lunch. But I need this little time of gnashing my teeth and renting my clothes first. Then I'll put the rejection slip up on the wall. I'll open my file on The Rock Walker and have a look at my query letter - see if I can spruce it up. I'll go on my list of possible publishers and I'll cast my line again. I'll get up on the old cayuse another time.
I know that each rejection makes me that much closer to being accepted and all those other bits of mathematics that make no real sense in the harsh light of day.
It's just that...well...it's July when therapists don't have many clients especially in the new economy. And it is a long time between sending something out and hearing something back.
There the whine is over. Gwen will be here in about ten minutes - I'll make us some espresso. She'll pat my knee and say 'there there' (why those words I wonder?) and I'll go to work on True. I'll remember that writers write and waiters wait and whiners whine. There done!